Q09

What is a fear that you have and how has it limited you? How do you plan on letting it go or overcoming it in the coming year?

FOMO might be a strong word, but I'm afraid that I will not have fully enjoyed and taken full advantage of my time as a graduate student. Twenty-one months goes by fast, and I would hate to see it pass with any regrets. I will therefore create a bucket list to direct my anxious energy and learn to cope that sometimes, high hopes and good intentions are enough. You won't remember grades, but warm memories linger.

I fear being alone and not having people like me. This limits me because I censor my thoughts and actions based on what I think other people want when maybe what I do uncensored will be beyond what anyone thinks I am capable of. Trust your gut, Stephanie. Do what feels right, but also ask for much guidance from those wise people in your life.

Oh fear has limited me so much and I let it limit me only to find out I feared being limited and the whole thing has come true. I fear change, I feel failure and I lack risks because of it. Instead of putting myself out there I hide and I don't take credit, I don't do anything. I'm in counseling to help with anxiety. I hope that helps me figure out what to do. I hope it helps me fix all that's going on for me. It's so frustrating to not be able to do these things, to act fine only to realize that in not facing your fear you've ended up running straight into your fear.