Q09

What is a fear that you have and how has it limited you? How do you plan on letting it go or overcoming it in the coming year?

Fear of failing publicly. My website, my business ideas. I dont put them out there because I am afraid of being a failure. What am I going to do? Feel the Fear and do it anyway.

I've been afraid of putting myself out there too much, and that's held me back from creative and professional work alike, not to mention a more social way of life. As I write this, a tweet of mine is a few days into going viral, and even that feels weird. Maybe I can learn something from this, and from experiences like it, and look for opportunities to open up.

My biggest fear is that I won’t get it all done, whatever “it” is, there always feels like there is more to do. I plan on spending time reminding myself that I can only do what I can do, and the important thing is to prioritize what matters most. And then to be aware of how I am thinking and talking about the never ending list of things that don’t get done, because there are simply not enough hours in the day.

Right now I fear financial insecurity. It's limited my ability to move forward, to even look for more work which I'm guessing would alleviate that fear. I hope to let it go by having a clear plan after this lease is up, this job is up etc. I'm starting to feel my age and realize that I have to take responsibility for myself even if the "help" is available. That's scary. Also, I'm fearing this level of emotional vulnerability I've been exploring with Ross. Who knows if he will even be a part of my life when I read this? How did I handle that? I fear things changing. All the things.

My fears have been the same for many, many year: that I will die alone, that I will suffer with no one to comfort me. If I don't have those relationships yet after 70 years on this earth, I don't know how that can be changed.